Tuesday, July 12, 2005
had my physics test.
it was so damn difficult please.
i'm sure i will flunk it big time.
i will be having so many tests this week.
wth.
chemistry and amaths on thursday.
worse is i don't understand chem.
luckily will be having tuition later.
yeah.
and i don't know is it me or the teachers.
the minute i open my mouth, LIMPY has to start picking on me.
its not like i'm the only one who talks?
why do they love picking on me?
do i have the "hello, please pick on me" sign on my face?
what the hell is their problem.
i am so bloody pissed now.
everything's screwed larhh.
my life is screwed.
my studies is screwed.
name me something that's not screwed.
school sucks.
i have to drag myself out of bed every morning.
i dread school.
i mean, everything have changed.
i used to be so eager to get to school,
so that i can, so called bond with my friends.
but now?
its just shit. a piece of damn shit.
its like, i don't have the eagerness to go to school anymore.
see my friends or not see, i don't mind.
or rather, i sort of dread seeing them?
as in, because i feel like i don't know them anymore.
very stranger like feeling.
it seems like
maybe for a change,
maybe they just
you won't know.
it just seemed like my primary school days once again.
being treated like a
its just back to square one somehow.
i'm really sick of putting on that mask.
but what can i do?
the minute i take off that mask,
people will start questioning, and maybe even get angry.
i know i shouldn't think this way, but i really can't help it.
i don't know what's going on.
ican'tbringmyselftofaceanyone.
iwannabealone.
tothinkthingsthroughthoroughly.
andmaybed somereflections.
idon'twannaloseanymoregoodfriends.
sigh.
life sucks larhh.
okay.
i really need the arcade for my ventings.
jaima, when are you free?
we shall have an arcade day soon alright?
i wanna take everything from the inside, and throw it all away.